April 27, 2023

Hi friends,

I thought I'd update you since I really haven't been posting too much.  I had a baby, she's perfect <3 recovery was hard for me.  I don't know how women do it!  Actually the women that I know that went back to work, are not very present to their children, because they are so stressed out.  This society has got to change! - personal opinion.  But seriously, how are women so unsupported?  No woman should be obligated to go back to work for at least 6 months.  Again personal opinion...  Ok, so I was focusing on recovery after birth, and... my husband got in an almost fatal accident.  Stress has been through the roof since then.  Not to mention grief, because at first I didn't know if he was going to survive.  And really a lot of demands, like multiplied by 10.  I don't think I am doing a good job of keeping up, but people say I am doing a good job.

I truly miss teaching my classes, and the work that I teach has tremendously supported me in getting through this.  The marathon has only begun.  But he will be ok thank god.

And my "team" has directed me to return to channeling.  The way that I channel is by journaling.  Very often my journaling turns into channeling, and so I agree with them.  Publishing it will do some good.  I know for myself when I read or listen to other channeling that is authentic, I am upgraded.  And so if my channeling speaks to you you'll also receive some kind of positive shift.  I call this an upgrade.

Side note: upgrading is always ultimately for the better.  Sometimes it feels great, and sometimes you are forced to upgrade, and that does not feel very good.  That feels like your life just doesn't fit anymore.  Then there are tiny upgrades, and being in the presence of channeled communication is one very nice way to receive an upgrade.  Not every one will feel it, I usually do.  And the sensation is specific to you.  Personally, for me it feels like relief, or like drinking a lot of water when I was thirsty.

So lets see what comes through right now.  ps there are often a lot of typos because I type so fast.  I am not supposed to correct it, because that slows me down, and the person reading it should understand.  

Here we go:

Hello,  can I channel right now?  Yes, but not in here.  Go to word, and then paste it.  

Ok, I'll be back.
Hi guys, can you talk?  Yes, we are always available to you.  The sun will distract you though.  Close the blinds.  Ok, that’s better.  Who is this? Your team.  Who is on my team? You know.  And since you will make this public we are not going to say, but you know all of us.  Ok, thank you.  What should I focus on for today?  We actually want to talk.  Ok, what do you want to say?  You are doing a very good job.  You held your ground, those that corrected you are wrong.  You should not seek their advice or approval.  They are very disconnected, and so nothing coming from them that actually be right for you.  Ok, thank you.  What else would you like to say?  It was good that you ate more meat in the morning.  You need to eat more in the morning, this will give you strength physically, but that is important to receive our guidance.  When you get hungry or weak, you become vulnerable to everything else.   Sophia need you.  You do not have the right balance.  What is the right balance?  To go to the hospital in the evening without Sophia.  Its better for her to stay home and receive 100% from someone else, while you spend time with your husband.  And then you are also able to be more present with him.  He needs your attention.  We know that you are spread very thin.  Try to make more meals ahead of time.  Feeling physically good is essential to being able to hear us.  So make that a priority.  You have not, and we understand.  But now, be full.  Ok, I will and what else?  I know you love him, but you must stay in your core.  He does need and want you, but you cannot allow this to fall out of your core.  And it will actually make him love and respect you even more.  Or rather even deeper.  It will also cause him to begin to respect himself.  Barely anyone respects them selves in your culture.  Its not respect as in admiration, but an honoring and giving presence to what arises, and bringing that to the table.  You can be successful and sad or successful and struggling.  They are not contradictory if you honor both and bring them to the table.  This way it just makes you more complete.  If you believe you can only be one thing, and do not honor the other aspects of you then yes it does seem contradictory.  It will take time to get used to that.  And even longer for others to get used to that.  It takes others longer because they are not used to AND consciousness, and holding space.  You are.  But you must have resolve in holding it for yourself.  Because others try to rush you, and that breaks the ability to hold space, to honor, and account for.  Thank you.  Although I knew that already, I really like the reminder.  Plus its great for other people to listen to.

​Hugs