Hi friends,

I thought I'd update you since I really haven't been posting too much.  I had a baby, she's perfect <3 recovery was hard for me.  I don't know how women do it!  Actually the women that I know that went back to work, are not very present to their children, because they are so stressed out.  This society has got to change! - personal opinion.  But seriously, how are women so unsupported?  No woman should be obligated to go back to work for at least 6 months.  Again personal opinion...  Ok, so I was focusing on recovery after birth, and... my husband got in an almost fatal accident.  Stress has been through the roof since then.  Not to mention grief, because at first I didn't know if he was going to survive.  And really a lot of demands, like multiplied by 10.  I don't think I am doing a good job of keeping up, but people say I am doing a good job.

I truly miss teaching my classes, and the work that I teach has tremendously supported me in getting through this.  The marathon has only begun.  But he will be ok thank god.

And my "team" has directed me to return to channeling.  The way that I channel is by journaling.  Very often my journaling turns into channeling, and so I agree with them.  Publishing it will do some good.  I know for myself when I read or listen to other channeling that is authentic, I am upgraded.  And so if my channeling speaks to you you'll also receive some kind of positive shift.  I call this an upgrade.

Side note: upgrading is always ultimately for the better.  Sometimes it feels great, and sometimes you are forced to upgrade, and that does not feel very good.  That feels like your life just doesn't fit anymore.  Then there are tiny upgrades, and being in the presence of channeled communication is one very nice way to receive an upgrade.  Not every one will feel it, I usually do.  And the sensation is specific to you.  Personally, for me it feels like relief, or like drinking a lot of water when I was thirsty.

So lets see what comes through right now.  ps there are often a lot of typos because I type so fast.  I am not supposed to correct it, because that slows me down, and the person reading it should understand.  

Here we go:

Hello,  can I channel right now?  Yes, but not in here.  Go to word, and then paste it.  

Ok, I'll be back.
Hi guys, can you talk?  Yes, we are always available to you.  The sun will distract you though.  Close the blinds.  Ok, that’s better.  Who is this? Your team.  Who is on my team? You know.  And since you will make this public we are not going to say, but you know all of us.  Ok, thank you.  What should I focus on for today?  We actually want to talk.  Ok, what do you want to say?  You are doing a very good job.  You held your ground, those that corrected you are wrong.  You should not seek their advice or approval.  They are very disconnected, and so nothing coming from them that actually be right for you.  Ok, thank you.  What else would you like to say?  It was good that you ate more meat in the morning.  You need to eat more in the morning, this will give you strength physically, but that is important to receive our guidance.  When you get hungry or weak, you become vulnerable to everything else.   Sophia need you.  You do not have the right balance.  What is the right balance?  To go to the hospital in the evening without Sophia.  Its better for her to stay home and receive 100% from someone else, while you spend time with your husband.  And then you are also able to be more present with him.  He needs your attention.  We know that you are spread very thin.  Try to make more meals ahead of time.  Feeling physically good is essential to being able to hear us.  So make that a priority.  You have not, and we understand.  But now, be full.  Ok, I will and what else?  I know you love him, but you must stay in your core.  He does need and want you, but you cannot allow this to fall out of your core.  And it will actually make him love and respect you even more.  Or rather even deeper.  It will also cause him to begin to respect himself.  Barely anyone respects them selves in your culture.  Its not respect as in admiration, but an honoring and giving presence to what arises, and bringing that to the table.  You can be successful and sad or successful and struggling.  They are not contradictory if you honor both and bring them to the table.  This way it just makes you more complete.  If you believe you can only be one thing, and do not honor the other aspects of you then yes it does seem contradictory.  It will take time to get used to that.  And even longer for others to get used to that.  It takes others longer because they are not used to AND consciousness, and holding space.  You are.  But you must have resolve in holding it for yourself.  Because others try to rush you, and that breaks the ability to hold space, to honor, and account for.  Thank you.  Although I knew that already, I really like the reminder.  Plus its great for other people to listen to.

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Hello, its journaling time.  I want to talk to my highest self.  Or jesus, who I know is only love.  What does taking my spirituality seriously?  It means taking your self seriously.  It means not catering to anybody.  It means holding compassion for them when they are upset that you don’t bend for them.  Not feeling nervous of what they are thinking, fearful of if they like you, or might get angry with you.  If they get angry, its because they are feeling out of control.  They are angry they are not controlling you.  That is something to dig your heals into the ground for, not be fearful of.  They are abusing you.  Essentially.  And its time to stand up.  You are going to make a lot of people uncomfortable.  That’s the point.  So many people are doing things wrong, and you are here to help them change. Bending for them is actually bad for the planet.  You want love, consideration, compassion, organic, healthy, holistic.  Lots of people are short sighted.  What else does taking my spirituality seriously mean? Taking time to rest.  Ok, and what about the finances.  Turn to us more often.  You could even publish this.  People are craving our speaking.  If personal things come up just delete that.  Ok.  Thank you.  Actually we do want you to puslish your speaking with us.  Why do you say us?  I asked to speak to my higher self, or jesus.  Its your team.  Your higherself is here.  Jesus is holding space, your higherself is directing, and we are all contributing.
  Ok, what should I do to create income.  Publish your channeling for now.  This will open up pathways.  It will help you to see better too.  Do the go fund me.  This accident was a lesson for you both not only him.  There will be many amazing blessings that will come out of this.  What should I focus on to build my career?  Start with channeling.  Every day if you can.  The more you post, the more traction you will generate.  And this is a stress relief for you, so really it’s a win win win.  Because as you know you are also upgrading others as they read your channeling.  And then we get to communicate more directly to a bigger audience.  One that is open.  There is money in channeling.  And it is happy money.  You are giving, and you will receive.  That is the future of money.  No more “what can I do to get…” that way is dying, and the people are dying with that way of thinking.  People are getting more and more sick, some are recognizing it.  The new way is give, and give and give more, and it will come back to you multiplied.  When you give in a joyus way, it’s a gift to you to give (first give), then it becomes fun to give and you look for opportunities (second give), then your faith is strenghtend (third give).  When your faith is strengthened with the regular habit of giving now in place, you have opened up flow.  And then it can show up in unexpected ways.  If you know how it will show up our beloved ego will hijack and figure everything out to the death.  Figuring everything out is an obsession for many.  That’s not the right way to live.  It’s the right way to figure out a specific problem, like for a mechanic or a math problem.  Ok, go to bed.  But post this first.  No correcting.  People will understand.  Because what communicates louder is the energy than the correct grammar.  You know we don’t care about grammar.  I know 😊  We love you jessica.  We love all of you, even the difficult ones.  We are trying to help you all.  But nobody can over step free will.
Good night for now.  Post this now.
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