Personal Update

Hi all,
An update.  Its hard to navigate the world of TBI.  For A LOT of reasons.  I am returning back to my practice of journaling, mostly because I'm posting about it and realize I really miss it.  I journaled today, and surprise surprise it felt really nice.  So I'm going to figure out how I can build this into my day everyday.  And maybe I'll miss days.

I live for inspiring others, while I am also dealing with some big struggles.  But if it were my friend I would think nothing less of her, and I would know that she will be just fine, and has amazing things coming for her.  So I am trying to remember that for myself often.  Something that also really helps me is "nobody has it great their whole life."  That was something I came up with when thinking about people I do know, and people I have listened to, or simply a class of people.  Everybody has a really rough spot somewhere in their life, and so hopefully this is my hardest spot.

I am very grateful that I had the addiction to personal growth before this.  Because I have so many tools and phrases that are floating around in my head all the time, that help me pivot really fast.
The biggest ones are all the practices that I teach in the Magic of Presence.  And some famous people.
Les Brown - "Its possible"
Steve Harvey "so I asked" - Steve Harvey has one talk in particular that I have listened to so many times and just hearing his voice in my head makes me happy.  His visionary energy lifts me up :)
Several pastors.  They are talking about God, and I believe in God, but if you don't it still translates over very well.  The concept still applies.

I mostly do things in 5 or 10 minute increments, that seems to work for me.  And when crying comes up I cry.  There are a few people in my life that are really uncomfortable with the "lower emotions", and they try to make me stop crying/try to make me feel better, I really hate that.  Because they don't understand that they are actually saying "you should keep those emotions bottled up.  This strengthens my resolve to teach people my work.  

I WISH people around me knew how to witness and hold space.  So few people have mastered this art.  And it is powerful.  I think I may return to teaching whether I am ready or not because I miss my class.  That being said, you can still get the big promo until I do begin to offer classes.  In class witnessing and holding space are key elements, and its so delicious.  Its why people love the class.  And I like to focus on manifesting, that too probably :)

And then just battling myself.  I am the personality type that is very idealistic.  Its very hard for me to let go of the vision I had, and just accept that this is how they will go now.  So I have that struggle.  But this exact quality is what helps me create courses that work for you, and keep you accountable to your dream.  And its why I keep getting up and trying again.  So I guess this quality is not all bad :)

AND I've told people this before.  But sometimes life gives you this kind of stuff to upgrade you.  When you choose to upgrade, to do the work, take the course... by your choosing, its fun, and nourishing.  When life says "nah ah, you're done, time to upgrade" and your life turns into a tornado it doesn't feel nice.  And while I know that is what is happening... Its still hard.  I liked it better when I was choosing :)  Though all of this is much easier than it would have been because I choose to do the work for so long before this.

Oh, a positive from all this chaos, is that I have met lots of my neighbors and made lots of neighbor friends.  I am happy about that <3

I do know this: when you are authentic no matter the emotion, good things happen.  You could say you manifest faster.  Being vulnerable is the courage to let people see the authentic.  I don't know who will read this and so that makes it a big risk.  Maybe trolls will read this, and comment, or try to talk to me in person? That's a fear.  And maybe someone will be inspired, to read more posts, sign up for one of my courses, or maybe just be more authentic themselves?  That would be a wish fulfilled <3

That's it for now.  I hope you enjoyed this.  I hope it inspired you to be a little more vulnerable yourself.

Sending love,
​Jessica